Unlink

Tried my best to unlink,

somehow still can't, 

what going on?!, 

I told myself, challenge myself to pust from can't to can, will it success?!, 

or only waste time to be such stupid, browsing makes me more sad and depress, 

my mind told me to unlink

but my heart still want chain it, 

what the freaking stubborn ME！

醒了吧！！ 

First time ever

First time ever i see the real face of this person,

I know this person always tried to be strong,

Tried not to let other people worries,

But somehow this create themself a border,

Border to let people get closer,

Border to let people care,

Border to let people to share their feeling,

I'm really here for you, 

Please dont let me become a stranger,

You are free to show,

Free to cry,

Free to express,

Free to happy,

Love xx.....

I Love You daddy

Its has been a while didnt update at here,

Today really a special day,

The day where my dearrest daddy born day,

Without him i won't be here today,

I really missed him a lot,

My friend told me before where i can't stay in the past,

I need to move on,

But i hope i can go back to the past, 

The day where i laughed,

The day where i cried,

The day where i hugged,

The day where i kissed you,

Are you right now in the heaven wathing at me?

I believe you do

Because I'm your lovely daughter,

And I really love you dad,

Happy born day,

Love, 

Your daughter,

Back again

Has been a while didnt update this blog,

This feeling back again,

Life, Love, all become so messy,

Why this happened?

I think this gonna follow me again....

Pls help me god..

Im really love you

How great of he when he give his only son to clean our sins. Sometimes I still feel stubborn, struggle and hopeless in life. Too much to think, too much to hope and too much care. I really love you.

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Chinese New Year is over,
Means new life start,
But how come my habit still old,
Still stubborn toward the thing,
I lost to the fate,

God not allow me to own this,
Father felt pity of me choose this,
That why they change for me,
For the good sake,

Need to go eyes specialist for check up,
Hope after this, i can see more clear,
To choose who i shall go for,
To choose where i shall move forward,

Heart still ache for this.
Am i step too deep?

self reflect

sometime we tend to choose live in the imagination world where in the imagination world we can control most of the things.

But what goes on in the real world?? we always cant accept the fact that we are old, cure, stubborn, etc where we use to give ourself a tone of reason to covered. Hence we tend to forget the nature of us.

Do you know why i like to watch real story based movie? it really reflect our thinking how the real world happened. How people living and encountered in their life.

Have a lot of thinking today, just a moment ago my mind keep on flashing the picture by picture of a person. Where i felt im so unfamiliar. although we just so close but i seem i cant understand what this people think. How come i felt far?? I'm starting to doubt myself again today, am i change? i think everyone of us change.

2013 ??

Today i finally went to see tarot cards,

To see how the things goes for 2013,

Apparently its seem accurate,

To displayed my current feeling,

To tell what my mind is thinking,

To let me finally decide to let go,

This might not 100% tell where i should go,

But somehow i felt is a god guide,

for me know should i wait or let go,

i should let go, 

let go the pass that not belong to me,

let go the feeling that bothering me so much,

let go the heavy heart,

i always tell myself don't cried,

not worth cried for nothing,

i should empty this space,

for the better placement,

Test

Everyday i felt god is giving me test,

test to endure,

test to accept,

test to face it,

test to love,

test to forgive,

test to feel graceful,

when this test will end?

personally i have no idea,

maybe to the day i feel tired,

how was the result of these test?

can i score an ideal marks?

every time when i would like to score,

i felt somehow i failure in some part,

the part that pull be back to the starting point

failure 2013

010113 what this mean?
started to think again,
i should think again and again,
when will the time for me?
to review and refresh again?
why i waste so much time?
to the no ending result?
im just so confuse,
and so stuborn,
plese let me go